I remember i had like a secret, well more like keep it on the down low cuz i don’t really want people to know what’s up, and i told only a close people i talk to. Eventually, a fews caught it and confronted me. Now to figure out how people found, is the question. Here is my theory,

Everyone has like closet hang out buddy’s an it’s like you know each other. (these are the brothers and sisters for life). You can tell them something, and you’ll know it’ll be safe. But perhaps these people have like best friends that i they know they can trust and not tell anyone else.

Now what if these best friend’s of the close buddies had another best friend which they can also trust. Eventually, everyone is conencted to one another. I mean if i had like some gossip or something, i’d tell my homie with a drink and john lennon chucks cuz i trust them. Then they would have another friend that they could trust.

I knew about this factor before coming into high school. I’d like to say that I have a mature personality for my age (grade) i guess. It’s probably because i grew up with many people that were much older then me because i actually became one of those old people. I saw what happened, i learned from it, i experienced.

Through out my high school years, people would OF me and not really know who i am. I liked that image of myself, it makes thing interesting. I get people trying to get close to me to figure out who i was. Then when they think they get the idea of who i am, they split like a banana and stop talking.

I remember this one time, everyone tried to get me to play the game “10 fingers” on the bus to one of the school public events. (it’s basically a game where you hold 10 fingers up at the start and everyone ask 1 question at a time if they’re done something in their life and if you did that that act, you’d put 1 finger down. The person who ends up with no more fingers up mean they have real interesting life and the person last standing is the boring innocent person.) I was out in an instant. Everyone was quite surprised. This game tells a lot about a person that you know nothing of.

I have another secret but i can’t trust people again. I would to share it with people but i just cannot. I just want people to know that I’m sorry in advance. I’m sorry for what’s going to happen. I’m sorry i didn’t tell you guys. I’m sorry for letting it happen. I really wish i believed in the word trust again. I am sorry.